Somba
I miss you like my oak tree shivers,
missing its leaves in winter.
I abandoned you when I moved to Kansas City.
At least, that what I tell myself.
Do you like your new owners?
What about the new dog they have?
Do you hiss at him like when you first met?
Then I knew you had strength and cat-charisma
and would do fine.
You were perfect for me
like the cool water in our pool in summer
or a cup of coffee with real cream
or a dream that makes sense.
You played outside.
You chased birds and rabbits.
You brought me a rabbit as a gift.
I screamed.
You were just as happy inside, too.
You never made a mess
in all the time I had you.
You slept on my bed.
You slept on my reading chair.
You curled up beside me,
put your paw on my book.
You strolled to the door when you wanted out,
looked back to see if I followed.
You came when I called you.
You were the perfect cat
and I abandoned you.
I’ve seen pictures of you in your new home.
How dare you look so happy.
You’re supposed to help me feel guilty
for abandoning you.
But maybe I’ve got this backward.
Maybe I abandoned me, not you.
I didn’t give you credit for being who you are
no matter where you live.
You didn’t change your personality.
You kept your impeccable habits.
You’re still the perfect cat, your new owners tell me.
Happily satisfied in your new home, they say.
You’re as beautiful as ever.
Your shiny, black coat,
Your petite facial features
that transform into a racy look in your eyes
when you pursue a squirrel,
yet switch to a delicate, proud walk around the neighborhood,
checking out neighbors’ porches,
hanging out until they love on you,
back home where I’m waiting to talk to you,
rub your ears,
and stare into your bright, yellow eyes.
I abandoned you
because I didn’t want to confine you indoors
and I can’t let you run free in my new digs.
Yet, your new family says they keep you inside.
Wait! What happened?
Did I read you wrong
or are you so polite and well-behaved
that you took to the inside
like fish to a new bowl of water?
Maybe I didn’t abandon you.
Maybe that’s my idea only,
and a wrong one.
Can I look at this another way?
I moved to start a new life.
Reinvention, I call it.
Maybe you and I are still connected
because we’re on a similar journey.
Starting anew.
Expanding our sights.
Experimenting with new opportunities.
Having more life to love.
I wish you peace
like you gave me when we were together.
I wish you companionship
like you shared.
We both move on,
celebrate our connection,
blow out the candles,
and reach for new richness
because what we shared
never ends .